My attempt to find balance with the sweets, and the sours, of life.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sometimes I marvel at the effects of the internet on our lives today. Sometimes, in my darker moments, I question whether the relationships we make on the internet are as real as we believe. Events in my life over the past few weeks have removed that doubt and shown me that cyber-friendships can be as real as those in the flesh.
Thank you all for the kindness and support shared in your comments to my last post. I was away from home and reeling. I logged on here and posted what was in my heart, and you didn't let me down and responded. And I realized I wasn't as far away from home as I thought.
As I said in the last post, my parents' rejection shakes me to my core. As much as I reject their concept of me, part of me cannot shake it completely, and it remains as my own doubt about my character, my heart, and my worth.
When you stepped up with understanding and reassurance and even shared some of your own painful experiences, it meant the world to me.
I'm back home now. Both with my cyber-friends and my real family. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
“Years ago my mother used to say to me, she'd say, ‘In this world, Elwood, you must be...’ - she always called me Elwood - ‘...in this world, Elwood, you must be oh so smart or oh so pleasant.’ Well, for years I was smart. I recommend pleasant. You may quote me.”~Elwood P. Dowd in Harvey
I am a stay-at-home mom who is coming to grips with the fact that my children are growing up, and that is bitter sweet. I have several pets who understand me including a couple dogs, some beautiful pigeons (yes, pigeons), some chickens who boss me around, and a mourning dove who I believe is God's little whisper to me from heaven. I was a lawyer before I got really serious and became a mom. I love to knit, write, cook, and to take good care of my family. We struggle with my daughter's Reactive Attachment Disorder, and hold hands very tightly sometimes while we withstand the high tide of her challenges. Through it all, I am blessed to have a husband who is the corner piece to my puzzle.